Goodbye Nicole.

She drifted away to make things right.
She can't be the second best
No matter how she tried.
She realized this is not what she wants.
But the friendship will remain as the years go by.

Though she said the feeling is gone.
She still wishes he will call once in a while.
Oh my friend, I'm so happy for you.
I will leave wishing a total change in you.
Start to free yourself from the guilt of what you've done.
Though not so intimate but it has taken most of your time.

You almost forgot there are friends whom you can call to make things right.
You ignored there could be something better to be done.
We have spent long hours of talking.
I feel so happy to hear you laughing.
God is so good to make you realize.
You are lucky to be who you really are.

To My Precious Rewards!

To you my babies:

Cannot touch

Cannot hold

Cannot be together for sometime

We must be brave

We must be strong

We must believe

We must have faith

Someday we'll stay together

To make our dreams come true.

You know how much I love you!

Mama

My Only Girl!

My little baby is turning into a beautiful lady! This will be my first time to greet her away from me. Despite all circumstances, We try to meet just to be with each other. Now, no matter how I try to touch and kiss her On her special day, it’s impossible coz I won't be there. She wishes nothing more but to drive a car of her own. Isn't so simple, a party no more. Papa will take care of what she wanted that day. Though I can see the sadness in her eyes. Trying to understand the reasons why. Oh my little baby who I will miss so dearly. Hope I had a wings to fly and be at your side. My beautiful lady just look up in the sky. We will be seeing the same bright star. Just read what it says, "I love you bebe mama is here." The wind, though you may not see. Just feel the breeze touching your face. That is my touch to send you my love. I love you my baby and you'll soon be a beautiful lady You do not look like me but the way you are, is a mirror image of me. You always try to be independent, but I know you are fragile. Just a hug, and all your fears are gone. You always want Mama to decide, coz you believe she knows best. I'm sending you a line directly to Him. Just keep it open and make  a call every time you feel down. He will never fail someone so precious like you are. Oh my little baby, I will miss you so much. Take care of your siblings I know you can be a good one. Let Mama know if you want something. Nothing will change, MY ONLY GIRL!

Ang Anay

Ang anay ay sumisira ng tahanan

Sa iyong paningin

Animo'y matibay

Pag iyong sinubok

Ito'y marupok. 

Makiramdam mabuti

At ng mapansin

Sa katahimikan ng gabi

Sya'y maririnig.

Gawan ng paraan 

Bago mahuli ang lahat.

Para di ka magsisi

Sa bandang huli.

DAHIL SA TRAYDOR NA ANAY!

The Sweet Lady Behind A Screaming Mommy

The little baby has turned into a sweet lady With tears and laughter behind a screaming mommy. A mom who is a survivor with a strength and faith no one can deny. The sweet lady she thinks is very lazy to do the things That can turn her to be like her mommy. The Sweet Lady... Though I look like I'm not listening My heart is screaming "Mommy! Stop thinking I am nothing" Please have some faith that I can achieve something. Though I tried and failed I am learning from behind I made a choice but never succeeded. Now I’ve turned into something long I've been yearning. I will do my best to give you the very best. I am the only one and there can never be another one To prove your worth as a screaming mom. Please tone down your voice and let our hearts converse.

Glimpse of Yesteryears

You gave me a smile that lingers in my mind
And that "I've got a crush on you" feeling
Then we became what you call "best of friends"

One day you drew me closer to you
You gave me a stare that penetrated my soul
A sensation I can never forget
You asked me what I have for you
But I didn't have the courage to say "I LOVE YOU"
Is it because you have never said you love me too?
Or am I afraid to break the rule which I was taught to follow?
To this day I can't get you out of my mind
Even in my dreams your stare begs me to stay
This time you asked what I want from you
Now was my opportunity to let you know
But why can't I have the courage
If this would be my only chance of having you
All I can say is...
"To let you know this might help me forget about you
I have someone who may have replaced my love for you
Because he has the courage to say he loves me too and I believe he is true"

But then again, I can't have either of you!

Just Friends

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhGwpxnCgoE 
What a love I found in YOU!
You are the one I was searching for

But I can never have.

As we talk how we've been

It seems so close yet not destined.

I wish we had a better opportunity

To get to know better and feel our love

Can I have one last chance

To express my true feelings for you,

Though I know you can’t be mine.

This is not a joke, not just to have fun with you

Is it better to...

Let the distance from where we are be our reason
so not to hurt the one who does have you...
Because we are JUST FRIENDS?

Loving You!

Some believe what we call "love at first sight". Love struck, it is a chance that anyone wishes to feel. Staying in love with that person is another thing... its a choice we have to make. We have to accept all shortcomings, negatives and everything you discovered and will discover in that person. And when we love, we must also accept the fact that we will be hurt. No need for us to complain then. When you are badly hurt.... and its your decision to fall out of love.

When we are in love, we must bear the pain. because staying in that situation is our choice. why blame others? why blame our partners? we are doing this as defense mechanism, so it will not hurt us more. 

Being in love is an inexplicable feeling. You  can see only beauty, hopes and forever. Once we get hurt, why we forget to look into that beauty, hopes and forever to help us ease the pain so we may continue loving. Its another choice we have to make.

Hurt will lead us to do many things, worse is when we can not control our temper... not even tame our tongue. Hurting the ones we love, emotionally, mentally and the worst is physically. Everything will be totally different from how we started. What is bad about this, too many people find it easier to decide to fall out of love than to keep the flame of love burning.

Then love another, doing the same thing. What a cycle? It seems that we are not tired of falling in love because of the feeling it gave us. 

• "you've got to love me for what I am, for simply being me"
• be happy with what you have
• think you are luckier than anyone else
• look into the negative of others, so you will see more of the beauty of your partner
• give the best you can, for you not to regret things you were not able to do.
• BUT... keep something for yourself.

in the long run, things will be on its right path. No self-pity, no jealousy, no hatred. No regret.

 
LOVE IS A COMPROMISE, MORE UNDERSTANDING AND ITS A GIVE AND TAKE, TRUST AND RESPECT. Love unconditionally, yet keep your own identity. Love is not you alone, but two to become one.

The one I love is not the person meant for me to live for the rest of my life. Only a love to teach me things in life, to make me a become a better person and thought me how to love more and my cross who lead me closer to the ONE I must serve the most. 

Thanks for the love, the time, the effort, the pain and everything, especially the kids, the most precious reward i got from loving you!

Alin ang mabuting gawin?

sa bawat ngiti ang mga buhok sa ulo ay nananatili

sa pag simangot ulo mo ay papanot.

 sa pag ngiti balat sa mukha ay nababanat

sa iyong pagsimangot ito ay kukulubot

sa iyong pakiwari ikaw ba ay

ngingiti o sisimangot?

Could this be?

Walking away from your comfort zone

Could be a start of a new beginning

And an end to a long suffering

There is a fear, fear of the unknown and inexplicable emotion

In a state of confusion...

Leaving behind a world where you've place half of your life

But not a life you've dreamed about

A difficult task choosing the right path

The path that could lead you to where and what you want to be

And after succesful planning

Unexpected opportunities may come your way

So keep an open mind

Prepare yourself to be amidst a diverse culture

This is what the universe has for you to fulfill your dream

No matter how hard it may seem

Life will go on

Singsing!

Ang singsing na ito nananahimik  sa daliri ko
May isang taong pilit nagtatanong.
Ngunit walang tamang tugon pag sya ay nagtatanong.
Puro hindi o kabaligtaran nito.

Eto isang matinding tanong
May kambal bang uusbong
sa sinapupunan ng babaeng ito?
At sino ama? (Itanong ba ito?)

kung ika'y nandito baka matakong.
sa mga tanong mong wala namang tugon.
iwan ko sayo, magsawa ka maghapon.
basta wag mabaliw, sa di kaaya-ayang tugon.

Kapag kinikilig, ang cellpone nayayanig!
Pagnalulungkot, kahabag habag ito.
Pag nadinig ang kambal, sya'y nakakalimot
sa sakit na dulot... ng lihim na tinago!

Mahiwang singsing mahal mo ba ako?
halika na rito at marami pang tanong.
pati kabit ng asawa ni nena
akala mo naman kilala nya!

Nicole!

Hi Nicole!
I like your smile
You have a charm
That turns my head back.

Can i have ur number
So i can call you up?
The little princess
I wish I had.

Why you came
So late in my life.
I might be so happy
Than what I've got.

As the years pass
Why can’t I feel
The love you have.
Are we drifting apart?

I did my best to prove my love
But why can’t you see us through?
Or are we just friends?
Cause I can't have you...
 =))

What Is wrong with YOU?

No mater how you tried to find a different kind of love
You always end up with so much pride
For they think superior and hold back the love.


Sometimes you think you have found the one
To know he is worst than the last one.
Then conclude, all men are the same!


But convincing yourself there are still few good men
But most of them are taken
Or confused if they can handle YOU. :D

Alone or Sorry?

I've done nothing wrong

So I stand strong.

I'd rather be alone

Than to be your own.

I'm setting you free

To forget about me

Than to say sorry

Coz you think I'm silly!

When I'm Done.

Why should I explain if you don't care to understand?

I am doing this for myself and not for anyone else.

You have your own thinking and I have my own reasoning!

You are worried, and say you really care!

Think I am safe or better yet, I don't exist!

When I'm done with this!

Do you want me to get done with you too?

Anyway, thank you!

Trial and Error!

 “Try and try until you succeed because failure is not in not succeeding, but it is in not trying!”

Can this saying be applied to discovering what could make us happy? Is discovery merely a trial and error?


It is in our human nature that we tend to yearn for more. Once we’ve achieved something that made us happy, there is this never-ending desire to seek for more! We keep on trying new things, based on what we heard, what we read, what we saw. People cannot find satisfaction and be happy with what they have because deep within it’s not really what they wanted.


Discovering happiness is trial and error. Trying many things means experiences gained. We can learn and discover our talents and capabilities.


What do I really want out of life? For me to have wisdom and smile on my last breath. To peacefully join the ONE who gave me this life.


The Maslow Hierarchy of Needs helps me realize my dreams, my purpose! I started with my physiological needs, onto love and security, then self-belonging, to self-esteem, and once done I reached self-actualization. Self-Actualization is the realization of my dream and purpose. I did one need at a time as instructed, like trial and error. I didn’t push myself too much nor skip a need or leap on the hierarchy.


I also believe with what The Alchemist said, “IF YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING THAT WAS MEANT FOR YOU, ALL THE UNIVERSE WILL CONSPIRE FOR YOU TO ACHIEVE IT.” In my struggles, I aimed high, but did not expect too much. I also learned to accept that I will fail at times, that not all things are meant for me. Is the strength of my will being tested?


How will we know that this dream is what was written in our hands, decided by the Divine Creator? There are certain forces we can feel that pushes us to discover it. Most of the time these forces cannot be discerned by us, maybe because we tend to lose hope, be unhappy, or are too focused on mindless things. Without analyzing things we keep asking ourselves, “why is life always like this?” We continue to pray for things not meant for us, we keep on failing and tend to blame people around us. What’s worse, we question God. Why He doesn’t hear us, does He not love us, or want us to be happy? We do not realize that is not our real purpose in life.

Let us try to look into this song “The Impossible Dream..." Does it contradict with dreaming something attainable? It’s a yes and a no. This depends on the person’s realization of what really makes them happy, discovering the mere purpose of their existence. A direction leading to a life of perfection – nothing is perfect in this world, only God is perfect. Thus, a life of perfection is a life with God.


We can do anything we want as long as we do it on our own free will. Freedom to do things. Freedom in its true sense - doing things you wish to do that will not negatively affect the people around you. Such purpose will be served while the universe is conspiring with you. Always think of the right thing to do, although the right choice may not always mean happiness. Funny as it may seem, it’s true.


Let us do our best to follow these two meaningful commandments, "Love God above all, and love thy neighbors." If we can follow these two, we can stick to all other laws of God and Man. From this, you can be freed of guilt, remorse, hatred, even depression. Freed from all negative forces that can hinder you from achieving your dreams and fail to feel the force of the universe within you.


How will you know that the universe is at work? While you are still on your struggle to achieve your dream, tests and trials will come along your way. This is why I used the word struggle, because you will be traveling a rough road. Give meaning to barriers, it’s either you change direction or go with the flow. As long as you are leading yourself to the right destination, making the right and proper choices. We might feel hopeless, almost to the point of giving up, but still fighting for life.


Sooner or later the message will be right in front of you, like flash of lightning that will give light to your almost fading hopes. At the end of your struggle you will discover that happiness was there with you all along right where you have started.

Do I know what can truly makes me happy?

I used to say “Hay Naku!” it means like asking, Why life is always like this?  Why life was sometimes cruel and most of the time uncooperative?  In life, it’s always a different scenario or a different meaning everyday. We easily forget the times that makes us feel good, the moments and feelings we don’t want to end. Often we find ourselves being consumed or eaten up by problems that we don’t even realize it’s just a part of living.

We heard and read a lot about how to make life easier, though the Bible says it all, is there an interest in our part to read and internalize the real message of it?  Then, we are still drowned in the waves of tests and trials, leading us to become a different person. It changes us on how to deal with life. It made us so indifferent, that we almost forget the real purpose of being in the realm of despair.  We may hurt ourselves or others, even both. Was it because we almost lose our faith? Or forget what we have learned from our past experiences?

Whatever events come in our lives, can you notice some sort of connections that binds everything leading us to the way of perfection? What seems to be a perfect life to us? Is there a perfect life? If I say yes, would you beg to disagree? Or try to figure it out?

Isn’t it a perfect life is simply knowing what we really want? Was it simply asking ourselves, "what can make me happy?" Is this happiness already felt before and we let ourselves travel back in time and be at the moment? Or travel in the future to still search for that moment? Or there is a deeper way of knowing what can truly make us happy? Could we simply based this on how it made us laughed?

Have you tried every opportunity that comes your way? Or just ignored it because of the fear of failure? Isn’t it so disgusting to have a lifetime of asking ourselves, what if I have done this or that? Or some kind of a nightmare that haunts us when all else fails?   Or just an escape to deny that we didn’t manage our life the way it can make us happy?

Does trying every opportunity can lead us knowing what we really want in our lives? Was this already planned? Have a better picture of how we wanted to see ourselves in the future? 

So many questions, but the answers are so few… 

NEVERTHELESS, WHAT CAN TRULY MAKES US HAPPY?